9 Mirtul, 1373
Haelimbrar wants me to take on an important task today. I need to find out how many worshipers of Bane are at the temple. He needs to know how many are clerics and how many are followers. He also wants to know if the temple damaged. I tried to sneak in, but the proved impossible. I tried to look and count the numbers entering and leaving, but that was not effective. I tried to persuade a guard to give me answers but he claimed he did not know.
I approached Haelimbrar and told him I was not successful. He said, “Why do you fail me? It was a simple task.” I explained all that I tried to do and how it wasn’t my fault.
Haelimbrar did not understand at all. He told me to go to the Ruins of the temple of Torm. He followed me. When we arrived he asked me if I remember when we first met here. “Yes” I replied. He asked, “Do you think I could rebuild this temple alone?” I answered “No, you needed help to move the largest beams and I sure you would need help on other things later.” Haelimbrar said” If you understand that, then why did you not ask for help today? “I explained that didn’t know anyone who could get in or trust anyone to ask around. Haelimbrar Said “Why didn’t you introduce yourself and state your business with the temple and ask for the answers?” I answered that I didn’t trust the Bane worshipers. Haelimbrar said, “That isn’t the real reason. The Bane worshipers would have told you what you wanted to know. They have to keep the city informed and besides they would enjoy proclaiming how their membership has grown. The reason you failed is because of your pride. Your pride is what leads you to make excuses and your pride is what is causing you to defend yourself now. Your pride prevented you from asking a worshiper of Bane for help. Shed your pride like a snake sheds his dull skin.”
Today is the day I learned the lesson of pride. I know understand another failing I have. The Triadic Vulgate is clear to me on this now. I will shed the dull skin of pride forever.
